Jan 29, 2010

Getting Caught Up...

It's been a hell of a long week! I spent a lot of it on my couch feeling like crap, which piles my To-Do list into something rather scary...the thought of which only makes me feel more miserable.

Luckily, today has been an improvement. My school assignments are manageable except for one class...Web Publishing! I couldn't get the student files to open on my computer (which has been increasingly acting up lately), so fell about two weeks behind there.

I felt good enough to get last week's completed, but still have this week's to tackle over the weekend. Unfortunately, the files we have to edit still won't open, so I'm building them from scratch instead (thank goodness for my meager background with HTML!). I'm impressed at what I was able to accomplish in a couple hours...they look pretty good, if I do say so myself. My other two classes should be caught up within a couple hours, so not so much worry there.

What I am worried about is staying on the computer too long at a stretch, with it acting up, so I'm accomplishing less in a day's time and having to choose between whether to catch up school or work assignments. I'm planning on looking into getting another computer once I'm caught up enough on all sides to take a day to do that. I just bought this one a year ago, so it's pissing me off that I may need to replace it already.

At any rate, things have started the climb back to a state of relative normalcy. I guess I can't bitch too much...just go with it and try to maintain the momentum upswing.

Jan 23, 2010

Just checking in...

...cause it's been a while since I've posted.

Just when I thought it was coming together, I got sick. BLEH! Mostly a sinus thing (on-going since fall) but got worse and created a week-long migraine that still won't go away. I figure it'll keep me nauseous until it finally goes away.

A friend of mine jokes that I'm pregnant because it's typical for me to have a mental breakdown as the morning (i.e. all day) sickness eases in to take over for 4 months. All of which I've experienced recently., I don't think I'm pregnant. First, I don't 'feel' pregnant (which always happens) and, second, we ruled that out before we started my shots last month as standard procedure. I do think the shots are aggravating my system, though. They're sort of designed to flucuate's how they work. It's hitting all my bi-polar buttons, except the ever-useful mania.

Still fighting the depression and am hoping to have it in a submission hold soon (I figure it'll improve as my cold does). The real fun starts after this second shot I'm getting Monday, when menopausal symptoms are likely (temporarily, thank goodness, I'm only 29).

My schoolwork is caught up (though I missed some days), but I've put in very few hours of work, which bothers me. I took the week from the surveys off I'm glad I did, feeling so crappy. Funny that I can be physically injured and still function very well, but I turn into a big baby if I get a cold. I used to hang out with a girl who was the exact opposite.

I think I'm going back to my couch to try to feel head feels like it's in a vice...

Hope this week has been better for all of you!

Jan 14, 2010

It's getting better...I hope...

Things are slowly getting caught up, my cold is improving and so has my mood. My fingers are crossed that it's not just a fluke or quirk of the week.

Aside from school, I'm relaxing everything else for a few days...I think some unwinding is in order. Either that or I'll crack and everything I hold together falls apart. I have both Suze Orman books and Laurell K. Hamilton novels to get reading on, so maybe I'll start on those!

I have class tonight and, hopefully, not too much homework (last week's weather cancelled the first class). Monday's class is out next week, so it buys me some time to complete that assignment and Wednesday's class doesn't pick up till next week, so I'm good there, as long as I can hold onto the new momentum I'm working on building.

Seems like everyone else has gotten busy too, whether it's trying something new (for a hobby or business) or hauling ass on existing things. I wish everyone the best of luck with your work, projects, hobbies and other resolutions. I hope we all succeed in our endeavors this year!

Jan 12, 2010

Is it spring yet?

Last week's crap aside, I am sooo not feeling good! I've been fighting that sinus thing since before Thanksgiving...I think it's finally getting one up on me and is starting to kick my ass!

That's not all that's feeding my negative mood, unfortunately. It seems like I'm behind in everything - work, domestics and (if nothing changes) school is soon to follow. I've been slagging in order to accommodate this cold and have even stopped taking my relaxants to make sure that's not making it worse. My nerves have let me know they don't like that decision much!

The ole bi-polar switch decided to go full-tilt into depression just when I needed the manic side to kick in and help me get things done (yeah, it's actually very useful sometimes, LOL). Where do you go when you need a break but don't have the time to take one or the pride to ask for one?

Maybe a quick nap (as soon as the baby's down for his) will help the crankies enough to get something done. If anything, managing that will help edge me out of this slump I've found my way into. Hopefully, I won't need too many of them!

Here's to a full recharge to get us all through the rest of the winter!

Jan 8, 2010

And The Year's Just Getting Started!

I went last week to get my first round of shots, then got sick with a sinus cold...go figure! But I'm now starting to get my head back on straight...I hope...

So far this year, I've tossed two "friends" to the curb and have made a few new ones, in addition to getting back in touch with a handful of old ones. My new 'crew' doesn't bog me down with the negativity the two afore-mentioned ones did. One dated an ex of mine, then blamed me for his shortcomings as a boyfriend (as if she didn't already know about them) and the other took full advantage of every offer to help her out when she needed it, then decided I work too much to hang out with anymore after she started spending more time with the other. Weird excuses and I even tried for months to give them chances to 'snap out of it', but they're both gone now! I don't need the hassle or their immaturity!

One girl I met at school is wanting to start a school club for working students with kids, since there are so many of us and we don't have anything like that yet. I'm hoping to help as much as my schedule will allow. Another old friend of mine just started with oDesk as a computer/software expert and is building his career as a freelancer. It's nice to be around proactive people that don't mind a bit of work to see something great happen! It's a real breath of fresh air.

My friend and I are planning to work on some dolls soon, but we don't know how far we'll take it yet (still much to discuss there, but the hobby's ON!). I'm wanting to start my business soon, but I want to be realistically sure of my schedule first, so I'm going to wait a couple weeks to see how school changes things.

So many changes, and the year's just getting started...I expect 2010 will prove to be one hell of a year. Here's to personal growth and making things happen!

Jan 5, 2010

First Day of School

That sounds weird, being an adult, but yesterday was my first day back in a physical classroom. I already have my first assignment, which I need to knock out as soon as I post this to stay caught up.

A strange development is that my boyfriend's ex-fiance is in my class. I'm not sure if she knows about me, or if she knows I know who she is, or anything like that. It's not a big deal, just one of those curious things that occur sometimes, LOL

I'm already starting to see my time slipping away, so I"m going to have to get a handle on it pronto! I didn't do a bad job of it, but I am a bit behind on some things. I'll try to get it done before I have to go to class tomorrow. Getting things done during the day without having to hire a sitter is one reason I chose evening classes this semester.

I hope everyone's having a great week so far...